touchy subject

Child Abuse

 

 

Hello hello hello so today i had quite an indepth conversation, we live with my step dd and mum and have done for nearly 14 years. Now i am 18 and 19 next week (excited) and my sister holly has just turned 20. Our real dad whcih i dont see anything of because im not aloud. My mum wont explain to me why but i always thought i had a right to know.

 

 

Last night me and holly were talking which we hardly ever do when it comes to our real dad. We were just remenissing over things that she and i could remember of him because the last time we saw him was when we were about 7-8. Years have passed and i thought we had no contact with him what so ever except birthday cards and christmas cards which i thought was nice of him, i mean he doesnt need to do that. Anyway i just asked her out of the blue "what is the clearest memory you have of him" (we never call him dad or tony its just him) which then she replied "i remember when once you spilled some paint on the floor as we were painting and we were told not to get it on the floor" (i was a very clumsy child and still am) she then continued with "and he came in saw the paint and told me to go to my room" which then i replied "well why because it wasnt you that did it and then holly said this "yer but you could do no wrong in his eyes so i went up stairs and sat on my bunk beds and he started hitting me even thought it was your fault" i was speachless holly had never opend up to me like that before i started to tear up because the thought of holly getting hit and punished for something she didnt even do and that was my fault i just felt sick and very sorry towards her, i had no words atall. Now holly is the quietest person i know infront of other people she refuses to talk to people she doesnt know. All i can think is, is it because of that. Have i caused my sister to become this intrevert person that was asked as a five year old to draw a monster and just drew a man.

 

Words cannot explain how horrible i feel hat my own sister had to go through all that when i was naughty and shed get punished it makes me feel sick. 

 

 

please comment if you or a sibling has ever been through child abuse

i think people that abuse their children shouldnt be aloud to have them !

 

well all from me for now i must be tom and cruize bye bye byeeee !!!